Wednesday, April 28, 2010

day 1 no sugar...again.... and finding an OA meeting

Today I read a blog that really finally pushed me over the edge.  In a good way.  I NEED OA.  I went to the meetings with my church group, got started, really had some good break throughs, but I can't do this on my own.  I need to quit dinking around and find a meeting to go to.  It won't be a quick fix, but I'm really struggling with the food addiction part on my own. 
And recently I've been lecturing a friend about their husband's addiction.  His addiction is gambling - and he's stooped to stealing from family it's that bad.  And he goes to meetings but - as she tells me - they don't HAVE 12 steps there, it's "too complicated with all the religion stuff."  So I've been preaching the 12 step program to her...hypocritical of me since I haven't followed through on my own meetings. 
Today I find a meeting and by this time next week, I will attend a meeting.
I am powerless over sugar. 
Last night after I blogged about day whatever without sugar, I thought I was safe - no sugar in the house. Then I saw the cinnamon toast crunch.  ARGH.  And I justified it by saying "it's only a teacup worth - that's not bad"  And after that teacup was gone, there was the usual amount of guilt - it wasn't proportional as I thought it would be.  Teacup of cereal, dump truck of guilt.  Mathmatically illogical.  But who says addiction is logical.
I need help.  I can count on one hand how many times in my life I've asked for help.  This one's a biggie though. 
Meetings.  12 steps.  Recovery. 
Here's to hope  *Raising my empty teacup in a toast*

TTFN,
LauraLynne

10 comments:

Drazil said...

Good luck sweetie. I know you can do this....accepting and finding help is always the first step right? And I loved your OA posts - they always got me thinking. Can't wait to hear how it goes. Smooches.

Lisa said...

I am right there with you. I need OA too...

- Lisa
http://inweighovermyhead.blogspot.com/

Crystal said...

i just found your blog... thanks so much for introducing me to OA... i had never heard of it before, so, being curious, i googled it... come to find out, they even have meetings in my town! i just put a call in to the lady that is listed as the leader... THANK YOU SO MUCH! you probably had no idea that one simple post would affect someone this much, but i think this may be my new beginning! the meetings, according to the site, are on mondays... hopefully the leader will call me back, because i really need this! lately, i've been contemplating a counselor, but this is a much (cheaper) better option!! i'm so excited! i hope you can find a meeting yourself! :)

Wishful Shrinking said...

If you cannot find an in person meeting I know that there are phone in meetings too!

This addiction is SO HARD... when you are addiction to drininking drugs and alcohol they say you can put the 'Tiger' in the cafe with Food/Sugar you put the 'Tiger' in the cage but have to take it out for a walk 3-4 times a day.. its hard! I know you can do it!

JourneyBeyondSurvival said...

You're doing a lot just by processing it and not letting your emotions snowball. I hope you get to an OA meeting soon. Don't think too much.

FrugalMom said...

Thank you for becoming my first follower at

The Fit & Frugal Challenge

First of all, I can so feel you with the sugar, it is addictive. I start out doing well, and then I just get this craving that is overpowering.

I wish you good luck with finding a meeting that will work for you.

Blue~ said...

http://www.therecoverygroup.org

OA online - the between meetings meeting. It is exactly the same as any meeting you know, just online. No need to wait to find one - you can go any ol day you choose :)

Hope that helps.

Blue~

Julie said...

Good for you!!! Keep us posted about your progress and any tips you can give to help all of us who struggle with this issue!!

266 said...

I have something for you on my blog!

Laura said...

You are taking the steps you need Laura Lynne. Thank you for sharing your journey, the ups and downs, with us! You are doing awesome, keep it up!