Thursday, August 5, 2010

finding my focus

Ok - now that the medical/emotional stuff is "over" and out there...I'm working on finding my focus again. Healthy eating, smart choices, and exercise.  #1 & #2 are coming along nicely (save for the animal crackers I'm about to eat) but I've been grocery shopping and I've got food to cook at home instead of random spontaneous choices that usually end up bad for me. 

Exercise it the weak point right now.  It's gorgeous out - I'm physically able to work out - I've got more time than usual due to kids' schedule being very open right now.  And yet I find myself sitting on teh computer or watching a movie (or both).  I've got a race coming up - but Sept. 18 seems so far off and I can "start tomorrow".  I know what worked before - making a calander, putting it on the fridge, and sticking to it like a job.  So why haven't I done that?!  Hmmm...I don't know.

I also need to make a calander for hubby - he wants to start working out, he's gained some weight and is wanting to just get his general health back in line.  Usually I'm really on top of getting things done for other people but I haven't made HIS calander yet either!! 

So - I say to you all now - I will do it tonight.  2 calanders - his & hers.  And the working out will start tomorrow (we will go for a walk tonight but I don't count that as "exercise" per se, just more as together time, I love hanging out and chatting with my hubby!!). 

Thanks to everyone for the comments and good wishes on my last post.  I'm sorry to everyone else who's gone through this, once, twice, or more. It's not completely out of my mind but it sure did help to write it all out.  I've been less focused on it and able to start thinking and planning for the future - you know, the one where I have 2 teenagers getting ready to move out of the house, some money in savings, and a map of the US with great motorcycle roads highlighted and waiting to be ridden!  I'm still sad and I still think about the possibilities and a small part of my brain is still shopping for tiny socks and composing nanny questionaires...but I'm working through it. 

Quick question - something I've been pondering for awhile now.  I obviously have a problem with food - but one of my biggest issues is candy.  Not that I love love love it - but that I eat eat eat it.  So, if you have foods that are especially hard for you to deal with from a compulsive point of view, do you go completely without or have you found a way to set limitations? 

I'm thinking that I need to go without.  But crimeny - it's a tough pill to swallow.  I did it before:  I haven't had caffeine for 6.5 years now.  Only what's in chocolate, nothing in beverage form.  And I did it cold turkey.  I can't remember if it was hard - it must have been.  I had a 4 liter a day Diet coke habit.  And I stopped.  And haven't had a sip since then.  Now if I had only written down my method, I could repeat it and never have candy again - what a dream that would be!!


amandakiska said...

I have both quit trouble foods altogether and allowed them in in small quantities. I have decided that for me not having certain foods at all isn't realistic and it sets me up to binge. So I have them in small quantities on certain days when I've planned for it. I can't say though that I have specific foods that are really a problem for me anymore. It used to be peanut butter, but now I eat that every once in awhile without issue. If anything it is sweets, but I don't feel a huge compulsion for them anymore. It is a relief.

JourneyBeyondSurvival said...

I think I can get myself off candy. I know it actually. But I don't know if I can get myself off baked goodies forever.

Laura said...

I don't know the answer to the go without or just limit question. I've done both methods with limited success. Right now I am trying designating 1 day a month to have my problem food (in moderation). I'll let you know how that works out.

I read your last post and I'm so sorry for your loss. I've been there and it is a grief filled process that not many understand unless they've been through it themselves. (((HUGS)))