I'm a little frustrated by internet filters at work - during slow times I can read other blogs but I can't comment - for some reason, commenting is blocked. Now I have to figure out how to "bookmark" the ones I want to comment on from home! Suggestions??
Meanwhile, I've been blogging extensively about my training - but not so much about my food issues - which are still alive and well. Some things I'm doing well on - candy's tempting but not overwhelmingly so, I've turned to almonds for a quick snack vs. a bag of chips. A reasonable alternative in my book. Sugar is ok - I'm still struggling with how to replace the "you deserve a treat" thoughts that hit me quite often. Artificial sugar defeats the purpose of abstaining - so sugar free alternatives are out.
My goal is to take the emotional emphasis OFF of food, not find food substitutes. Does that make sense? Most people I explain it to are a little befuddled by the concept. Is alcohol-free beer ok for alcoholics? Not in my book - am I being unreasonable?
I still have a hard time walking through a grocery store and feel overwhelmed at times with urges for halloween candy. It's not always bad - but sometimes I really am *this close* to throwing the towel in. I know it gets better and that keeps me plugging along. I've done this before - it's been 6 years (give or take - I don't keep track anymore) since I've had cola or caffeine of any type. I'm not even remotely tempted. Not even a sip. So I KNOW it can be done.
My brain is a tricky organ though.
"just a little bite"
"sugar free doesn't count"
"it's just one"
"you can stop any time"
and on and on and on....
I've been fighting it. And winning - so far. Nov 1 is coming up - that marks 3 months no candy, 2 months no chips, and 1 month no sugar treats (I still have natural sugar and instant oatmeal - otherwise no sugar).
In training news - I'm thinking about creating a new training plan. I'm having trouble finding the time for my Over the Top plan. I made it with aggressive training in mind. But I'm feeling like a failure for not completing all the training. In reality I'm doing really well. But watching as some of my scheduled training doesn't happen because of regular every day life - it feels like failure. So I need to adjust. For comparison, I'm training roughly 2+ hours a day. Somedays more than 3. But it's not always 100% effort because I'm tired or distracted. So my reasoning (rationalization?) is that if I schedule less training but give it 100%, it will be as - if not more - effective.
I'm super excited because hubby and I are taking a vacation - that will
Ok - time to go catch up on some blogs (and leave comments!)